Thursday, October 26, 2006
screwed @ 12:09 AM

ah shit... i woke up late even though i had ppl calling me so many times i still couldn't make it. As expected i was late for class... i reached at 9.30am... late for 45mins.

lunch was a norm one... i went to Ruby's Indian Muslim Restaurant for prata which are oily. Made me visited the toilet 2 times in the late noon.craps..

after class we went to Wan's place b4 we went to Tampines to meet Jack & gang for Deathnote... the movie was good very very dark... i kinda looked & reflected myself being the guy Light... shit i am evil as a devil i didnt know that.. looks like i might be brought to meet devil himself very soon..

i gotten home by 12am.. now having some light snack b4 i sleep...

god bless..

Tuesday, October 24, 2006
screwed @ 11:15 AM

hmmm... i woke up @ 10am thinking that its already 12pm. bad move, i had a crunch that my day would be bad. Too bad my life now is in tatters i had no one to blame but myself. i could only wish for the best in whatever i do now... to compound matters worst.. she didn't wanna talk to me anymore in a sense... =(

i really cannot bring myself into stepping into the world now.. i dunno what else i could do now... i am lost seriously lost...

what my fren told me was true.. i am running away from my problems, i thought of leaving that place for good which will do me wonders in forgetting everything that had happened. Still i might come across it one day... now i just wanna go on a long holiday give myself adjustments & refirmation of my mind. Which is almost impossible to do due to hectic school schedules...

mum told me that i shouldn't be cooping myself at home but where else can i go to? not that i haven't got any frens i just dun wanna show others my mood which is not gonna help them in matters... i even turned down a birthday invitation cos i do not wish to be reminded of my lousy birthdays which happened for 5 years straight.. since 2001 till now i never actually had a good birthday.. more or less so.

when facing problems in life is my forte, i can handle literally everything i could with my sheer solid mind but yeah... this time round i really failed. Being thrown into a situation like that ain't gonna help mi any better... i just dun wanna move on just like that... i feel that there is something i could have done but i dunno what was it... everything i seemed to do now seems not working not making sense to myself either...

i am working this evening... but i still do not have the correct mindset nor a good frame of mind.


tommorrow i might be going to catch a movie with Andy & gang... if its in Tampines thats not gonna make mi real good either...

End of Woke up at da wrong time....

screwed @ 2:15 AM

woke up at 7.30am when my class is supposed to start at 8.30am, basically i am gonna be rushing to school extremely soon....

was in da train in a jiffty..couple minutes later Kelly called mi on my mobile apologising that she did not call mi to wake mi up. Yeah its all my fault for sleeping late... spending hours sitting there thinking about what i am supposed to do.

made my way to school really soon... but still i was locked out of class due to being late for 30minutes. i dunno what i had been doing for the past 2 months.... i am depressed i think i need to seek medical health very soon if not i will become a pyscho... lolx

class was slow as usual... we had Sports & Wellness by "zindine" whom made us take note on how much we consume a day on calories... hehe... my energy consumption per day is 6126kj & the amount i took in was only 1456kcal... thats to say i am almost underweight... =)

lunch was boring due to the fact that all of my muslim classmates are having a half day meaning that we only had Kevin & Andrew the last men down for lunch... how boring it can be.... made our way to the coffeeshop out there to have duck rice =) long time since i last ate there... i requested for more rice -_- cos i am starving in there.

afternoon practical was even worst... i guess i had a bout of flu again... making myself really miserable inside. Since my group of terrorists ain't around i would be on my own on doing the job.. its kinda crappy for my teacher to insist that we draw a decent sine wave when the oscilloscope gives us a really crappy reading but never mind that... i can manage that.

till 3pm i decided that i wasn't in the right condition to go to work thus i smsed wilson to inform him that i am skipping work today... i think he knows something is wrong with me but he just doesn't wanna ask me why. Where i oso don't have the intention to tell him anything cos i don't want him to worry about me & tell Pauline about it..

hmmm... morning need to meet jiji & visit someone... need to go catch some sleep now..

haix... i made a mistake too many in life.

End of Maybe I am gone....

Monday, October 23, 2006
screwed @ 12:53 AM

hmm... a decent blog i had finally put up. took me 3 hours to clear it. Will twig around for a few more times before i go to bed. i am just wasting my day away not working spending hours online, chain smoking, eating unhealthy foods. too bad my life these days are such a pain maybe i should dig a little hole to hide.looking forward to school & ya i need to get on with my life & not pausing wasting my time pondering on my next move... so long... i need to wake up at 6 again, ain't required to be late for first lesson.

End of finally my blog is up and working perfectly

Sunday, October 22, 2006
screwed @ 11:22 AM

Okies... today i was over at Wan's hse for the nite, the best part is i fell of the bed while sleeping & i had a gash on my arm. Woke up pretty early at around 10 plus went to Northpoint for Yong Tau Hoo... quite nice or maybe its my stomach growling. =)

boarded the train home.... seems like i having this problem arriving at Chinese Garden station cos on Wednesday evening this uncle was knocked down by the train i am in... maybe i have developed a phobia which i dunno. It is sad to lose a life like this. my deepest heartfelt condolences to his family.

i was back home by 12pm, doing my laundry & such. Makes me more relieved that the haze conditions are better.... so my clothes wont smell like ash. =(
by 12.30 i am already done with most of my hsework... time to slack around till 3pm before i leave my hse... for work.

i dropped by Borders bookstore at orchard, it was crowded, i managed to get tis cute CSO to do a check on my gift card expiry. Yeah i could still use it. So i zoomed myself into the Fiction section to get my jucies flowing.. found a book named Hostage.. its basically a military suspense set in Ireland.. i already covered four chapters while travelling in the train.

lucky i wasnt late for work... -_- but i had a surprise, i saw ex-bao bei standin there. think she saw mi but bo chup mi sobz... too bad lor. nothin much i can do as well...
work was decent... wilson having good mood so not much stress here & there but one thing that he said made me a bit stumped... our muslim frens break fast u oso dun go join them... ???

i reached home at around 12.30am... was on da phone with her for like 40mins minus the time when i didn't talk... we chatted later on msn for a couple of hours.. though not exactly long but ya... good.

I fell asleep while right infront of my laptop....

End of fell off da bed